Watchdog.

I swear Beja must be able to tell time and has an alarm clock as 10 minutes or so before bed he'll jump up onto the bed and lay down getting ready and when it's time to wake up he'll start licking my face! I also couldn't find the 30 YR old's futon; it wasn't in his room so I wondered if he was getting a new bed but it turned out he'd just moved it to another bedroom, one that's cooler and we also had to get a new deep freezer as ours died(and all the food inside all rotted and needs to be replaced and costs $$$) but we did have it for 15 years though which is a long lifespan for an appliance nowadays and we even saved 400$ because my brother-in-law works at the store so we got a discount and next-day delivery( it's supposed to be coming today) even from out-of-town, too, just like Amazon!  I also had this weird dream I couldn't walk one more step and  and I fell down and could only crawl and then drag myself along the ground until I collapsed and yesterday and today I also had a headache and really baaaad abdomenal pain nothing worked to relieve.

I'm sooo tired of always hurting all the time.

I also like these funky pants but they would never fit my fat ass and are only made for skinny people(like I used to be once) and Trump left the G7 summit a day early, probably as he wasn't welcome there and I was thinking it would have been "funny" too if the other world leaders at the summit did the Roman Senate thing on Trump like they did with Caesar and now I also have no doubt in my mind that Netanyahu is the Anti-Christ and the 30 YR old recently found out he has asthma and needs an inhaler like the 22 YR old and it makes me wonder too if they maybe also inherited my Alpha-1 Antitripsin Deficiency, which is genetic and affects your lungs(breathing, maybe that's also why I have the cough,too?) and liver? It might be worth their while to get tested. 

F*ck.

 Why can't we just be normal?

Why do we all have to have so many medical problems?

Yesterday I said to my hubby when I saw him pass by, We need more rice before you go away because I'm almost out only I didn't know he still had on his headset for work(an honest mistake) and he sternly admonished me Shhhush!! and I felt shamed and scolded like a little kid. He always seems to have a way of making me feel small and stupid.

 I'm so glad he'll be away for a few days and I get a break from being talked down to.

'Scuse me while I kiss the sky.-Jimi Hendrix