Glory.

Yesterday was a glorious 15C and sunny so Beja and I got to enjoy being outside for 2 HRS and I even got a red sunburn on my face! Tomorrow is also supposed to be the same but today is dull and yucky, sucky rain so it'll be an inside day today. I also heard next week is supposed to be all double-digit temps as well! Yahoo! Finally like real spring! I just hope it doesn't rain though because that ruins it and I'm NOT sitting outside in the rain!

Yesterday the gas co. also called complaining their guy "can't read the meter" and had my hubby do it and it was no problem; it was just next to a bush and so he told them off for being so lazy and not doing their job, saying sarcastically, Oooooh, it was just sooooooo hard! Everyone is just soooo lazy and doesn't do their job anymore. I also got yet another notice in the mail,too, from my mother's creditor about her furnace debt(I recognized the address) the second or third one I've got since I returned the original with DESEASED RETURN TO SENDER written on it. I just did the same again and sent it back.When will they finally get the idea and stop? 

I also heard Iran has this smart idea of placing sea mines in the Strait Of Hormuz to deter ships unless USA and Israel f*ck-off  and I heard a funny joke as well: How come everyone always talks about the Strait Of Hormuz and no one ever talks about the gays  Of Hormuz and just the Straights? 😂

My hubby also asks about dinner, "Is it something stupid/weird?" AKA something he doesn't like (because he's a picky eater) and I reply "It never is anything 'stupid/weird' ;it's good; YOU'RE just PICKY!" and he has to get his own because it's not a restaurant and he's a grown man and perfectly capable of getting his own food if he doesn't like what's served, and I also heard a criminal lawyer is suing the Toronto Star newspaper as an RCMP officer saw child porn on former PM Trudeau's device and of course they won't do anything because he's untouchable( the same reason nothing has been done in the Epstein case) but he did  tell one of their reporters who then told the attorney....except the paper covered-up the story and hid it from the public refusing to publish it.

I can't say I'm really surprised though, at him or at the cover-up and  censorship in this Fascist shithole.

I also can't wait until I cross over to the Other Side and call out Buddy, "Where's My Boy? Where's the Best Dog In The World?" and he comes running over to me and jumps into my arms greeting me and we're reunited again, it will be the *BEST*  moment ever, and also to finally have friends that won't use me or betray me, and to finally find love, healing, forgiveness, acceptance, inclusion,  and answers to my questions, and to find happiness and peace and to just be  with no more anxiety, worry, stress, fear, shame, guilt, regret, and where people won't hate me and I won't  be me or hate myself.

 It hurts as well to realize that ALL the people that have hurt and betrayed me have ALL been in my house under my roof, even my worst enemy that we had to flee Ottawa to escape from, proving that you really can't trust anyone,  and that it's always the ones closest to you and that you think  you can trust that hurt and betray you the most. The 31 YR old knows that well, too, with his ex-boss who he was close to but cheated him and now has a lawsuit against and his ex-GF who he once called the "Love of his life" but it ended badly.

My Happy Place is also on the beach in Jamaica  at sunset under a palm tree smoking a Big Fatty listening to Reggae. 

I hope that's how I die.

Courage isn't the absence of fear. It's loving someone enough to keep moving forward when fear is all you have left.-Saum Prad