Thursday, October 10, 2019

Mammo 2


Yesterday I had my advanced mammogram to check the "suspicious" spot the first mammogram picked up and this one clamped down on my poor titty even more than last time and it hurt so much it even made me wince and it felt like a vice and it felt like it was going to chop part of it off! Ouch! I didn't think I'd have results for a week or so but the radiologist read it right there as soon as it was done and she said it was fine; no tumours; just tissue folded over, likely from my previous surgeries. My hubby also had his ultrasound for the lump on his arm which actually ended up being two separate lumps which doesn't look good.....uh,oh, I bet I won't be the only one having surgery soon, although mine is much more complicated and is considered a major abdomenal surgery and they said it takes 3 hours and while they're in there they'll scope my bladder too since there was some concern about a possible tumour in there....

Yesterday I couldn't pee either and I thought my kidneys were failing as I had peed at 2 am but then I couldn't again until 9 hours later! I kept trying but nothing would come out; it didn't burn or anything like it did when I had that bladder infection as a kid or hurt like if you had kidney stones; there was just no pee to come out and one time it felt like I had to go; I felt pressure and it felt full but when I tried only a couple of drop came out, but since then I'm going just not too much.


This is also the bruise on my leg, it's worse and a deeper darker purple/blue althoug it's hard to see from the photo. The 20 YR old also went back and she visited an old friend when she was here and another one has his pilot's license now, and she tried to connect with 2 others but sadly they have now parted ways as all they want to do now is party; go to bars and get drunk and do drugs and she's never been into that, and it's sad too because one of them is her former BFF as a teen and they were so close once but now she's turned into white trash and has a dead-end job at KFC with no goals or ambitions; no university or even college, no career plans or life goals; nothing, all she does is party  all the time so when she asked the 20 YR old to hang out with her and go partying and she said she's not into that she replied Then I guess we can't be friends anymore.... which is sad because why can't they still do other things together, like just hang out or go shopping? That's too bad....

My mother is doing her weird-obsessive thing again as well, this time about Thanksgiving dinner: I say we should have it on the Monday (which is actually the real day anyway) since both the 24 YR old and the 16 YR old (who work part-time at the grocery store) work on the Sunday but she keeps insisting we have it on the Sunday anyway because something like that's when we always have it....but she always goes and makes things more complicated than they have to be  and she's just so stubborn and , oh, my God, I don't even know.....I can't even explain it and when I said I don't understand it, what's the big deal she huffs, It's NOT for YOU to understand! WTF? Seriously? You can imagine what my childhood was like growing up with her!

Wednesday, October 9, 2019

Wordless Wednesday.


This reminds me of when the girls used to place pebbles all along my dog's back!

Today's Truth.


Big F*cking Nug.


My oldest( who turns 30 next week! My God, I can't believe it! It really doesn't seem that long ago I was just prego with him!) sent me an e-mail last night with attached photo that said Big F*cking Nug. I just laughed my ass off and it just happened to be at the same time the 20 year old came for a visit and everyone in the family(that's still here) was in the room and heard me howling with laughter and they came over to see what was so funny with the 16 YR old laughing and putting her hand over her mouth when she saw and shrieking to my hubby, No, Papa! Don't look!! It was hilarious! My first thought was Oh, my God! How much did that thing cost? ( he said he only paid 50$ for it!....not bad) and so I replied, I hope you share it with your brother!! I have always taught them to share and I share everything except for chocolate. It reminds me of the other day I was savouring this chocolate and the 12 YR old wanted some and I said uh, uh....and he said I was greedy and I told him I am NOT! I share everything,even my weed, just NOT my chocolate; that's the ONE THING I don't share! and then before I'd realized what I'd said and potential info I'd accidently let slip he peers at me and goes, With WHO?(referring to sharing my weed) and it was his oldest brothers when they were in their 20's and not wanting to expose anyone I had to quickly "catch" myself and distract him and I stammered, Uh, oh....nervermind, it doesn't matter..... Another funny story involving him: 3-4 years ago the oldest gave me a bong for a Christmas gift and the 12 year old ( then age 8-9) said What is that? and I had to think fast and blurted out, Ummm, ahhh....it's a vase! A flower vase! and everyone else just hid their muffled laughter.

Yesterday was also a gorgeous day:

It got to 19 C and I got to spend the day in the sun! Finally!! After it being either cold or rainy (or both!) and being stuck inside for the past 4 days or so I was finally let out of my cage and set free! It was wonderful! I even got a burn on my face and my hubby was able to work on the balcony railing. The 20 YR old also came for an early Thanksgiving(it's this upcoming weekend) visit and I think my kidneys must be shutting down because I can't pee! Ever since I woke up this morning, no pee. The last time I peed was 2 am.Hmmmm.....


Thought For The Day.