Saturday, March 5, 2022

Not Much.

Really not too much going on lately which is why I haven't had too much to post to update, incl. today but this is it:
My mother rubbed A5-35 on her sore shoulder and it smelled like wintergreen everywhere(luckily for me I like that smell) and it reminded me of those Lifesavers that I used to get in a "book" in my stocking at Christmas as a kid and the 27 YR old also made his Greek lamb stew with orzo and it always smells sooo good the aroma permeated thru the entire house, even wafting all the way up to the third floor and I could smell it all last night up in bed and the scent still lingers today! Imagine a scented candle or essential oils with that scent? Yum! Last night I also paged him with the Google Home Device (I was on the computer and he was in the livingroom) that his oven timer went off but he didn't hear it(I guess the TV was too loud) and then he got mad at me for not getting up off my fat lazy ass and coming in to tell him and then proceeded to bawl me out and tell me how useless I am even though I was busy and my foot hurt(my heel still) and it's not my job,and I was nice enough to even let him know in the first place(which I didn't even have to do) and that's the "thanks" I get and when I told him off for being such an asshole and a thankless ingrate he didn't even see what he did wrong and I told him the "useless fat ass comment". THIS is the exact kind of shit I'm talking about, how my toxic family regularly degrades and belittles me,and to such an extent that they aren't even aware of it because it's just the norm and they're so used to it.

The conflict in Ukraine also continues on and it used to be that society was conditioned to hate the unvaxxed but now it's Russians and the worst you can possibly be now and on the Cancel Culture Hit List is an unvaxxed Russian and there's also disturbing news reports coming out of Ukraine as well they're only letting white women and children( they're forcing all men 18-60 to remain behind and fight whether they want to or not) flee; NOT letting Black people cross the borders as refugees, racist Fascists, and yesterday my abdomenal pain was sooo bad and my ass felt like it was on fire as well and now I know what the Pacific Ring Of Fire feels like and my mother had her Oodie inside-out and the sherpa lining was on the outside and she looked like a giant sheep and I told Buddy who was hunting mice to eat, You're NOT hungry; you're just bored! Kelly Clarkson's show is also on just before my nightly news comes on so I always see the very end of it as I switch the channel over and she always says at the end Have a great day and if it's not great, well, change it! and my "version" of it would be Have a great day and if it's not great,well, f*ck it! and my hubby did a 4 HR chess exam as well he thought was "fun" and as much as I love reading and I have no problem with learning( even though it's hard for me to learn new things) exams have and never will be "fun" for me, and I saw somewhere too that The right person will never get tired of you but I guess then that there isn't any Right Person for me  then because everyone eventually gets tired of me.

"Every sleeping person is exploited in ways which would horrify him if he were to see them suddenly and fully." -Vernon Howard

 

Friday, March 4, 2022

Today's Pondering.


 

My Battle Cry.


When we were being persecuted by an enemy 20 YRS ago I adopted this song as my "Battle Cry" and then once again during the COVIDianRegime lockdowns, restrictions,mandates, etc. as well I took it up once again.

WE'RE NOT GONNA TAKE IT by Twisted Sister

We're not gonna take it
Oh no, we ain't gonna take it
We're not gonna take it anymore
We've got the right to choose it
There ain't no way we'll lose it
This is our life, this is our song
We'll fight the powers that be just
Don't pick our destiny 'cause
You don't know us, you don't belong
We're not gonna take it
Oh no, we ain't gonna take it
We're not gonna take it anymore
Oh, you're so condescending
Your gall is never ending
We don't want nothin', not a thing from you
Your life is trite and jaded
Boring and confiscated
If that's your best, your best won't do
Sing it
We're right, yeah
We're free, yeah
We'll fight, yeah
You'll see
We're not gonna take it
No, we ain't gonna take it
We're not gonna take it anymore
We're not gonna take it
No, we ain't gonna take it
We're not gonna take it anymore
No way
Yeah
Sing it
We're right, yeah
We're free, yeah
We'll fight, yeah
You'll see
Sing it for me, Jersey
We're not gonna take it (come on)
No, we ain't gonna take it (louder)
We're not gonna take it anymore
We're not gonna take it
Oh no, we ain't gonna take it
We're not gonna take it anymore
Sing it, sing it, sing
We're not gonna take it (louder)
No, we ain't gonna take it
We're not gonna take it anymore
One more, one more, one more
We're not gonna take it (what)
No, we ain't gonna take it (yeah)
We're not gonna take it anymore
And don't you take it either.


 

Thursday, March 3, 2022

Thought For The Day.


 

My Boob.

Now I got your attention:Yesterday morning during my bath I noticed a swelling the size of a pea under my left boob just beneath the nipple.  Now normally this would be soemthing of concern you would worry about (breast cancer)but I've had so much crisis, trauma, misfortune, medical issues, etc. in my life that this is just yet another. Just one more added to the list. When I palpated it though it wasn't hard though and it doesn't hurt, it was squishy and not a lump, so maybe it's just scar tissue from  previous surgeries although I never noticed it there before. I had a mammogram a couple of years ago(and those things hurt; my god, it felt like my poor titties were being squished flat in a vice!) and at first they did think that they saw something "suspicious" and sent me for a follow-up ultrasound but then said it was nothing. I'm not going to worry about it though; I'll just keep an eye on it and see if it gets any bigger or if there's any other changes. There's really no sense in getting it checked anyway because even if it is cancer I'm not going to get chemo anyway(which I know they would try and push me to do) so what's really the point? Chemo makes you feel even sicker and feel worse than the actual cancer itself and I'd rather just be able to enjoy the time that I do have left, and besides, I'm ready to die anyway; I have been for a long time,and,in fact, I welcome it,and have been waiting for it,and am looking forward to it, so why would I ever do anything that would prevent it or prolong it?

Yesterday was also Ash Wednesday the start of Lent and a fasting day which is really hard when you have a stomach ulcer as an empty stomach aggravates it and my stomach really hurt and I also had one hell of a headache as well so to relieve it I could either eat or smoke weed.....so guess which one I did? 😝
The vax passports finally ended as well( although they also said places have the "choice" to still ask for it if they want but it's NOT mandatory anymore, but who would and alienate and segregate and lose customers?) and just in a day my hubby already went out to a restaurant and to the cinema and once the travel restrictions also end and you don't need to be vaxxed to leave or enter the country I'm going back to Jamaica, and the other day the almost 15 YR old(later this month) went tobogganing with his friend and I still remember when I went tobogganing with my friends as a kid,too, but if I did it now I'd end up paralyzed, and I tried the new Burger King Jalapeno Bites  too and those things were just soooo good and my only complaint is that I should have got more!My mother and my dog are also both the same,too: both old and both do nothing but sleep all day!

It's also supposed to go up to an amazing 15 C on Sunday( it snowed yesterday) but rain, otherwise I'd be sitting my ass outside enjoying the sun, and I heard too they're making a sequel to that stupid 80's movie Beetlejiuce which was one of the dumbest movies ever( along with Howard The Duck, Little Shop Of Horrors, groundhog Day, and Lost In Translation) and I certainly won't be watching it; the original was bad enough and I saw a commercial for The Bachelor  as well and it was a group of slutty women chasing a man and it reminded me of a pack of lions on a hunt! Ewww!! I'd rather stick pins in my eyes than watch that crap! They couldn't even pay  me to watch that garbage!  My talent is also blowing smoke rings, turning my eyelids inside-out and putting my thumb down next to my wrist, and now with Russia being "Cancel Cultured" due to conflict in Ukraine it reminds me of kids fighting, You're not allowed to play in the sandbox anymore! Get out and go home! and being kicked out of the Popular Kids group, and the assassination of Archduke Franz Ferdinand started WWI so I hope that they don't kill Ukraine Prez Zelensky and start WWIII and I heard a great many of celebs have made a deal with the devil and sold their soul for fame and fortune too and the saddest thing is that they don't think long-term; just in the present for the few short years of a lifespan but not for eternity where they will be forever separated from God, and it seems to be as well that most attractive people are nice to look at too but they're NOT usually "nice" people.

Some of the greatest people who’ve ever lived were not particularly beautiful, but they made a difference. Ultimately, looks don’t matter. Or they shouldn’t.-Marcy Stehling





 

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