Tuesday Thoughts.

No one cares.

Able to withstand the storm.

My hubby.

I'll probably be dead but at least I'll be happy.

I think the kids took it.

Canadian bears' fast food.

Someone told me there's a girl out there With love in her eyes and flowers in her hair.-Led Zeppelin

 

Daily Truth.

 

C Diff.

Yesterday my hubby, the 16 YR old, and I visited my mother again( we do every day and so far she's been there 5 days only it seems much longer) and the 28 YR old asked if it was "obligatory" when I asked him if he was coming and I told him, "It's up to you; you don't have to come" and he said he'd rather not, which ended up probably a good thing because now she came back positive for the bacteria C Difficile which is very contagious so we had to all mask and gown up and wear gloves as a precaution(I looked like a surgeon!) and I was so sweaty as she doesn't have A/C in her room( just a fan!) and it can cause kidney failure or lead to sepsis and death, so holy f*ck! I knew what it was as soon as the nurse mentioned it but my hubby had a blank look and said to her, Can you please explain to us non-medical people(while pointing to himself and the 16 YR old) what that is? and if you have it you'll have abdomenal pain( which I always have anyway so hard to tell just from that) and really smelly watery diarrhrea. They also X-rayed her sore knee and it's just arthritis and they re-started the antibiotics and hydrating IV and gave her something for the pain she thought was the powerful opiate  Dilaudid since it was a "yellow pill" the nurse later confirmed to me it was but she never wants it again as she was so sleepy, groggy and woozy her speech was slow and slurred.

My mother also tried to get us to smuggle in some forbidden food for her and she was really hungry too and could hardly wait for them to bring her dinner, but an increased appetite is also a good thing meaning she's starting to feel better,  and she refuses to drink her potassium meds now too because it's so salty so I told her to just ask them to give it in either IV or pill form( both of which I know exist because I've had them myself) and the 28 YR old said the entire time I was gone poor Buddy just sat by the door barking. The poor dog must be so confused and miss me esp. since I hardly ever go anywhere and now I've been out every day for the past 5 days. Yesterday morning I also kept feeling sharp pain in my left chest every few seconds for awhile I wondered might be an imminent heart-attack but then after an hour or so it stopped.

I also took a photo of the sunflower painting they had on the wall for sale I want to buy but being Sunday no one was there so I'll see when I go back today if I can get it and all proceeds go to the hospital foundation so it helps charity( and God loves the charitable) and I remember on the cruises they sold art as well I loved and wished I could buy too but it was always waaaay out of my league; the bidding started at 45K! So I did the next best thing and just took photos of my fave. pieces instead. On the way home I also stopped off and bought myself a little treat as well: pretty yellow roses and I also thought the 28 YR old took my empanadas as I found them in the oven so I took them out and the 16 YR old and I shared them....except later on he told me that he'd also bought his own ....ooops, so I just ended up giving him mine to replace it, and I used a new towel this morning after my bath( we had to replace towels that my mother had soiled) and I'd forgotten the first few times you get all these little "fuzzies" all stuck to you, esp. when you put coconut oil all over your body first.

USA and Canada also had warships off the coast of China to either antagonize and provoke them or to spy on them( or maybe both) so then China sent it's own warship to intervene to try to "scare" them off(or to at least let their presence be known) by basically "cutting them off" like drivers typically do to eachother in Toronto traffic and now they're whining about it even though they started it first and why did they even travel so far, all the way across the world, right to their borders, anyway? What business do they have doing there,anyway? They just want to "shit-disturb" and if it were reversed and Chinese warships were off the coast of North America they'd probably blow them right out of the water. Imperialism can kiss my ass. They just want to provoke a war.USA is probably also jealous that China is becoming the new Superpower.

Every life is a life worth saving.-Doctors Without Borders.

 

Musing For Today.

 

Bag Of Oranges.

Yesterday we ( my hubby, the 28 YR old, 16 YR old, and I) visited my mother in the hospital again and this time she was semi-sitting up in her bed and even ate an entire egg sandwich on her own but still has the catheter and her potassium is low and she's dehydrated so they put the IV back in and she's still delusional at times,too, and even said to the 28 YR old that there was  a "bag of oranges behind his chair" and kept insisting and he kept looking to "humour" her but of course there was nothing there and she had just sucked on an orange slice so was probably just smelling that  and she also thought it was October and that she heard "someone famous and French from Quebec died" ( maybe she's foretelling Celine Dion's death, who isn't well? Maybe she's been to the Other Side?)and the nurses took the call button off her because she kept bothering them she said was "accidental" and I asked if she kept rolling over onto it and she said it was "in her hand" ( "accidental" ,my ass) and it's true; medical professionals( or in her case, retired ones) really are the worst patients, and she refused to eat the meatballs they gave her for dinner and I reminded her if she wants to come back home she has to eat and she sniffed, But I don't have to eat that! and said to me Next time you come visit me I want you to bring me a gift! even though I did just bring her flowers, but the good is at least she's back to her "usual" demanding self so she must be starting to feel better!

She also tricked one of the nurses into giving her 3 orange juices with her breakfast, not knowing she's diabetic( it has lots of sugar in it) because she hadn't read her chart, and they were even selling art they had displayed on a wall that incl. a sunflower painting I wanted to buy except I didn't have any $$$ with me but if it's still there today when we visit I hope to buy it, and the 28 YR old says I'm "weak" and it's just a "lack of 'discipline'" why I'm so nerve-wracked, stressed, and worried about my mother,too, and says it's "just natural with aging" but it's only because I care I'm concerned (plus my anxiety disorder doesn't help)and I think it's cold and callous that it doesn't bother him, and I'm so stressed-out I'm hardly eating much and basically for the past week just live off bagels and Jamaican patties. I also told everyone if I ever end up in the hospital I want someone to sneak Buddy in to visit me; to just smuggle him in a gym bag or something, and I hope it really is just hemmoroids I have as well and not rectal cancer or else everyone will think I got it from doing The Difficult Brown  and people will think I'm a pervert!

Yesterday the 16 YR old also went to a "dinky" little fair in town( they only have something like 6 rides) with his friend, and I still keep seeing that beautiful bright brilliant cardinal every day I wonder if it's a "sign" symbolic of something; some sort of "message", and I hid the Boursin cheese among the bags of milk in the fridge so the 28 YR old wouldn't eat it all like last time and he never changes the milk bags(I always seem to get stuck with that job) so I figured it would be safe there and he'd never find it but he still did and called me a "little rat" and my hubby said it turned out that the almost 22 YR old( this month) is dyslexic and all this time I just thought she was a bad speller!  I was also sitting outside tanning and these "seeds" kept raining down on me from the tree overhead and sticking to my suntan oil(and not good for my allergies,either!) and my hubby and the 28 YR old cleaned up my mother's bed area(I washed the sheets I could save but had to throw most out and get new ones) and there was so much garbage, rotten food, even a dead mouse, etc. under her bed it took 3 big black garbage bags full and took them 2 hours and even the cup holder in her walker had maggots in it! She's such a pig, hoarder, and God-knows-what-else but it was just soooo disgusting!

I stand alone today.-Jackyl