Daily Thought.

 

God's Gift.

Today I woke up to see a "dusting" of snow on the car and flurries flying around: our first snow of the season! I'd had this revelation before too that I'm going to die on the 29th( although I don't know on which 29th!) but in case it's tomorrow I prayed to God that I see the first snowfall before I go and He answered me! Yesterday and today I also have this reaaaallly baaad abdomenal pain likely my diverticulitis again but it's soooo bad it feels like something's twisted or blocked and even smoking weed just takes the "edge" off the pain but doesn't fully relieve it, and also pain in my chest on the left side near the ribs,too. I feel like an old broken down jalopy. I need an overhaul. Yesterday the LTC home also called informing me my mother's in isolation with a bad cough so she can't leave her room and no outings for her and meals have to be in her room,etc. it's like she's a prisoner in her own room, a hostage,like solitary confinement, and she tested negative for Covid but they should test for Pneumonia since that's what usually takes down old folks and she's also prone to it but she doesn't have a fever so hopefully it's just something viral that will resolve itself and I remember when I had Pneumonia too when I was 5 months' prego with the 25 YR old and every breath hurt my ribs, I was coughing up blood, and my temp was 104 F! They said I can still visit her but have to "gown up".

They also said on the news that live Christmas trees now cost between 80$-300$ which is just crazy! I just paid over 200$ for my artificial one and re-use it every year, and next-door are such rednecks too they have a flag in their window as curtains; I think it's an Aerosmith flag, but still, and the 30 YR old also kept insisting the Ginsu knife was Chinese but I knew it was Japanese and I told him so but he kept insisting he was right and I was wrong(he's arrogant like my hubby that way) and said it says it's from China and I told him everything is from China but it's still a Japanese knife but everyone just thinks I'm this big dummy and no one ever listens to me or believes me....but then I Googled  it and it turns out that *I* was right!

Victory!!

It felt good, esp. when everyone always thinks I'm so stupid.

Buddy also loves yogurt as much as I do and I can't figure out as well why vegans won't use milk, eggs, or wool. I get it they won't eat meat  as you have to *kill* the animal but it's not harmed in any way for milk, eggs, or wool; it's a gift  they give us without any harm at all to them so why do they have a problem with that? My hubby also ruined my snack again last night bringing me back some crap from Little Caesars I don't even like and not only that but with pepperoni I hate and don't even eat and it was all hidden inside so I couldn't even pick it off! I swear, I'm convinced he does it on purpose to ruin it and to piss me off so I sent him back out to get me something decent. There was also some lunatic shooting at cars on the 401 which is the highway the 30 YR old and his boss take all the time going into Toronto for work( other than the odd time they take the 407 but that charges a 20$ toll )and last night his boss came over too so he could take out his stitches he had in his neck from a cyst removal and biopsy as his doctor 'didn't have time" (if you can believe it!) so he just gave him the stuff to do it and said to do it himself but you can't exactly reach the back of your neck! I swear the medical care in this Shithole is sooo bad it's like a Third-World country! It's like self-serve and what's next? Doing surgery on yourself, too? It's like an assembly line! Even having a baby they used to keep you in the hospital for 3 days and now they shove you out in just 3-4 HOURS! It's the same for surgery now,too.One of them was even deeply embedded into the skin with skin grown over it ,too, he couldn't get it out so likely will get all infected now.😭

Public schools also don't teach you how to learn and how to think for yourselves either; they just each you how to conform, comply,and obey, and yesterday the 30 YR old and his GF went to an art gallery and when I asked him Did your GF like it? he said she did, and for once didn't say "She's NOT my GF" so maybe she finally did whatever disgusting thing he requires for someone to be able to "qualify" as "worthy" to be his GF or else he just finally admitted it, and whenever he fries up bacon the smell drives me wild too like it does to Buddy but my colon won't tolerate pork anymore so I just have to enjoy the smell. It's just like with my candles; I enjoy the scent but I know I can't eat it.

'Cause, baby, goodbye doesn't mean forever Let me tell you Goodbye doesn't mean we'll never be together again.-David Gates

 

Wordless Wednesday.

 

Today's Chuckle.

 

My Eye.

Yesterday my right eye was soooo swollen, really itchy,watery, and blurry( shown here) and was driving me crazy. I have no idea why; if I had something in it  or if it was an allergy, or Pink Eye, or what but it was driving me nuts and I had to take both a Benadryl and a Reactine before the maddening itch and swelling finally went down and today it's still a bit swollen and feels tender but I wonder what it was? I also wonder if it was maybe my hubby that snuck the tonic water into my case of pop (and not just an oddity at the canning factory?)esp. since he does encourage me to try it and says I'll "like it" etc. as when I searched what tonic water WAS it said it has quinine in it (and he used to be a bartender so he knows what's in tonic water!)which I know to be an anti-malarial drug....but it also said it can cause heart, liver,and kidney damage as well, none of which I can "afford", AND it also inter-acts with one of my medications,too, the one I take for migraines, bipolar, seizures and also is a heart med.....making me wonder:

Is he trying to kill  me?

He does want to sell the house and move(which he makes very clear!) and I refuse and he has to wait until I die....

and he also does have a good * life insurance* policy on me,too.....

or am I just being paranoid?

But....just because you're being "paranoid" also doesn't necessarily mean that someone isn't  also trying to kill you as well.

I also saw online people were saying women only cut their hair short if they're "lesbians" "feminists" "hate men" etc. and to "turn men off" to "be ugly" etc. and it was all just soooo stupid because for one thing we don't even do it for men and some women just happen to like short hair and the convenience and easy-care of it and happen to look good with short hair, and I also learned that the average cob of corn has 800 kernels in  16 rows, and the movie Wicked  is the top at the box office as well but I have no interest in seeing it; a movie about witches, and the 17 YR old's been slacking off on his chores too( even though all he has to do is put out recycling and arm the security system before bed at night; it's not like he has a busy life; he just plays games on his computer all day) and still leaves his dinner plate out on the table for days on end I refuse to clean up(because I'm not his slave and he's old enough to clean up after himself) so from now on I'll just keep re-using that same plate for his meals then until he finally gets the hint and puts it away and I don't have to scrape off my dishes before loading the dishwasher either; I just have Buddy lick them clean.

Asshole Trump also says he's adding 25% tarriffs on imports from here and Mexico to stop illegal migrants,drugs, and crime crossing the border yet fails to address the issue here of all the illegal guns that cross the border from USA daily  and are involved in crimes here on this side, and there's  finally a ceasefire in Lebanon between Israel and Hezbollah too which is good news....but they're still committing genocide in Gaza, and since my kids think I was such a "bad" mother and want nothing to do with me anymore I figure my final act of love is to just let them go and not be a part of their lives anymore and I don't think Buddy's happy anymore,either, as now he's so old and  broken(he turns 19 in Feb.) and he hardly wags his tail anymore; when he knows I'm near and cuddling and nuzzling him he'll thump his tail a bit but generally it just hangs down between his legs now as he shuffles along gingerly and I DO give him CBD oil and liquid Tylenol for pain but I think he's "ready" to go now,too, just like I am...

I always walked alone in life until I got my dog and now he walks beside me.

 

Wednesday Words.

...and groan, creak, and scream.

I *LOVE* that sofa!!!!!!

More like 4:30 pm!

Laying in the back of the stationwagon with my cousins in sleepingbags, making funny faces at the drivers behind us. Good times.

No greater love.

....and? What's your point?

F*ck 'em.

The other way is how rednecks do it!

He just doesn't like people which I can appreciate.

...and the thin one and the pretty one!😂

The hardest thing about loving a dog is that they die, everything ends, everything changes, and although she’s not here I will love that animal forever.-Greg Holley