Pondering For The Day.

 

Ava.

I updated my Facebook avatar (now I finally figured out how to change it) to match my new dreads and here it is! I named it Ava, as in Ava Tar, get it? My original one is below at the bottom, with the short grey Pixie cut. Still the same chunky fat body but different hair and a new outfit to go with it. I wish they'd had a tie-dye shirt to choose from; I would have chosen that, but oh, well. This is still pretty good. It also reminds me of my real life, where I've had to start over so many times now it's hard to even remember which one my original life even was and who I really am anymore.I'm also pretty sure that I've had lots of past lives too due to the places, things, and people I can remember and recognize but don't have any logical way of knowing and remembering otherwise.Last night I also ate spicy chili but in hindsight it probably wasn't such a good idea given my stomach and colon issues, and I also had a nightmare there was some natural disaster( I think it might have been an earthquake but I'm not sure) and Buddy and I got separated and I couldn't find  him and I looked all over for him and people kept telling me to give up, that it was a lost cause and he was likely dead and buried under debris, etc. but I wouldn't give up or stop looking because he is my everything and my entire life.

Yesterday the 29 YR old also got off work early( he's not normally back until 8 pm or so) so he had time to go and apply for a new health card and driver's permit since he lost his wallet (and I really liked  that wallet,too; it had BAD MOTHERF*CKER embroidered on it)and luckily I  still had his passport and Social Insurance card safe up in my safe with the other documents so he still had some  ID to be able to re-new the others and he got a new bank card as well and cancelled his credit card and sent for a replacement. I told him from now on maybe it would be a good idea that I keep all of his documents up in the safe in case something like this happens again which is exactly why I keep everything there so it's safe and I know exactly where everything is, plus, like before when we had the fire I just grab the safe and run and all the documents are safe. He doesn't know where his birth certificate is though; he thinks he put it in one of his fave.antique  books but he's not sure which one so I told him to find it and give it to me to put in the safe because the oldest is trying to get a new one and is having alot of hassle. Starting tomorrow he also has the rest of this week and all next week off work too because his boss is on vacation in Mexico.

They go right, we go left.-Wiz Khalifa.

 

Thought For Today.

 

Daily Life.

Here is my other new 60's-style knit sweater I got, along with my dreads I just loooove!! If you look closely you can also see up in the far upper  right side our kitchen ceiling that's leaking and falling apart,too! We keep trying to fix it but when it rains it just keeps leaking and falling apart again.You can also see some of our fridge magnets I collect from every country I've been to, 38 so far,or is it 39? I've lost track now.. I visited my mother yesterday and when I told her how the 29 YR old did a job for Geddy Lee and even got to meet him she got all excited too(she knows who he is!) and her face just lit up and she exclaimed and squealed, Geddy!! and then went on to repeat the story that I originally told her how he got his name Geddy; how his name was actually Gary (well, it was Gershon really but then made "English" to "Gary") but his mother's strong accent when she said "Gary" it sounded like "Geddy" so that's what everyone started calling him and now that's who he is.😂 I was also able to visit her earlier than usual because badminton was cancelled and my hubby came back hours early from pickleball, too, I'm sure because he hurt his bad knee even though he told me the gym closed "early" telling some stupid story that it "broke" but I don't believe it.

I think the only thing that "broke" was his knee!

My hubby also tried to cut his hair but didn't use a mirror for the back to see and it was all uneven and he had these bald patches mixed with what looked like landing strips and it was soooo funny I just laughed my ass off, and I tried to get a photo but it didn't work, and yesterday and today my stomach pain is sooooo bad as well it even woke me up at 3 am and took over an hour until it let up enough so I could go back to sleep and yesterday I was also so tired as well my eyes were stinging. I was also itchy all over so my liver must be acting-up again, and I have bad pain in my right kidney area,too. It almost feels like a contest which body part is going to kill me first.

I'm pretty sure my dreads are made from hair wool as well because I get all sniffly and congested because I'm allergic to wool and it's so tight on my big 'ol head after a couple of hours I end up with a big headache but I guess that's the "price" to pay if you want to look half-way decent and my friends on Facebook keep gushing how much they just love my new look,too, and it's also sad to realize that Buddy's(who is almost 18 now) quality of life has declined now and he can no longer go for walks as he can hardly walk much now and limps along slowly and he hardly plays much with his toys anymore and just sleeps all day, and he's all bent and crooked, but that's just what happens when you get older and your body starts to fall apart,and it's the same for me,too; I can't walk around the shopping mall anymore now,either, and even get out of breath going up a flight of stairs,too,and can no longer do ( or have the energy) to do the things I used to,either. Getting old really sucks but at least we're a good pair and at the same speed, like a couple of old cronies.

These are also my fave. fuzzy socks I was finally able to find. My hubby didn't even know what fuzzy socks were! Duh! The 29 YR old also was going to get his mole checked out but his health card's in his wallet which he can't find; he lost it somehow and he's like an old man with Alzheimers with his forgetfulness and I think it's from his repeated concussions from jiu-jitsu, and now Israel has accused a UN relief agency of taking part in the October attack so now countries are pulling their aid out and I bet it's a false accusation just so the Palestinians have even less relief aid, to starve them out even more, as "revenge" for being called to the International Court for genocide, and slavery, the Holocaust, and now the genocide in Gaza shows the depth of humanity's cruelty to one another,too.

Beauty is not defined by what someone looks like.-Herald Berg

 

One Way To End Depression.

 

Thomas Cayne

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Storyteller. Anthropologist. Naturalist. Madman. Fri

How long can untreated depression last?

“It will never be the same again.”

My friend Sarah’s life had turned into one single mantra which controlled her every thought. Nobody knew when it had begun. But it must have been there for a while, somewhere.

In some sense it was weird: she was in a good long-lasting relationship, had many very good friends and a warm social life, had a high-end job, and she was also a celebrated gymnastics teacher.

Sarah was also too perfectionistic, and I think at some point she stumbled upon her own limits, and then something cracked. It reminds me of cycling. Sometimes one can push one’s boundaries and follow a high tempo in a group of cyclists, but once there is a gap of even a couple of meters, the distance quickly increases and you are left behind.

And Sarah was left behind by her own self.

Although she could get all the possible help and support she needed, she decided all by herself at some point that she could and would not be treated, because “it would never be the same again.” So she acted as if she was getting better, and as if she was taking her special pills — which she wasn’t.

We met her several times on parties in that period, and something was clearly going on — she basically stopped interacting with her friends, and her silence was telling more than any sentence ever would. (Except the mantra, of course.)

As if she wasn’t there anymore. As if she was seeing things we could not see.

One day, when her boyfriend was at work, Sarah took the rope that she had been hiding in a cupboard, and hanged herself. She was barely thirty. Her mantra had finally acquired flesh, and become the undeniable truth.

“How long can untreated depression last ?”

In Sarah’s case, it lasted about two months.

And then it was gone.

I found this on Quora.

Old Souls.

I found this on Quora. I always thought that I was an Old Soul and this pretty much confirms it as it describes me just right.💗

Past and future lives

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Irina Nola

 

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How do we know if we are reincarnated old souls that is still within this cycle.?

You can look into your Akashic Records or ask your Spirit Guides. Old souls are non-materialistic, service to others, very spiritual, and either religious or seekers of their own understanding of spiritual reality, they usually have developed psychic and healing abilities. They are very loving, but not deeply attached to other people, and would not go into lifelong depression if a loved one dies, they are able to let go and self-heal. It is pretty easy to separate and old soul from a young soul, as young souls are materialistic, hedonistic, chasing money, sex, and toys, but there are also Mature Souls in between, who are relationships-oriented, and their family is everything to them… the Old Soul start loosing such deep attachment to a family or community and can live alone as a hermit, or be quite comfortable with just a few friends. Their main connection is to God/Source and Spiritual Reality, they are ready to leave physical reality and stop reincarnating. You can Google “Michel’s Teachings, Soul Age” and read more about Old Souls, and also take a self-evaluation test.

In these teachings Michael (channeled being) does not make a distinction between Earthlings and Starseeds, but if you are a Starseed - you will most likely be an Old Soul on the test. IMHO soul age does not apply to Starseeds at all, as their experience on other worlds is quite different from human experience, they might only have a few human lives, or this life can be their first on Earth, they are quite naive in human ways, not used to negativity and violence and usually can’t wait to get the heck off this planet. They do not necessarily want to stop reincarnating and achieve enlightenment or nirvana - they just do not want to reincarnate on 3D Earth anymore and return to their own peaceful advanced civilizations.

 

Truth For The Day.