Daily Thought.

 

Some Assembly Required.

Yesterday I tried the new limited time Tim Hortons  chicken parmesan flatbread pizza (shown here) and it was ok but kind of bland and didn't really have much flavour but luckily it came with a dip that made it a bit better but Buddy didn't mind it though. He esp. liked the s-called chicken that tasted like sawdust.We also got to spend the day outside and it wasn't too hot( only got to 20 C) so even Buddy wasn't too hot and  I could tan for something like 5 hours and as I was sitting out on the back porch a squirrel came right up to me and kept nattering, angrily demanding food,too, so I told it if it's going to be a greedy little bastard with an attitude like that then I'm NOT going to give it anything and our grass in the backyard is easily over 3 feet tall now( maybe even taller) and I don't know when the part for the lawn mower is ever going to come!

We also got these lights for the backyard garden (we used to call MoonRays) my hubby had to assemble but he only did 6 out of 10 so far. They're solar powered, like the ones we used to have at our old house in Ottawa. We had some at the front and some at the back but here we'll just do it at the back because people steal everything here in this redneck town. I decided I'll put them alongside the pool, in-between the pool and the lawn, but can't until the grass finally gets cut(whenever that is.) Other than that there's not really too much going on other than my hubby leaves today for his chess tournament in USA over the weekend giving me a break,too!

Yahoo!!

I just feel so free when he's not here.

I also like these cool funky shoes, and yesterday my cousin went SCUBA diving in the Red Sea I think is pretty  awesome. I've been to the Red Sea, but not deep sea diving, just sailing. I also figure with the kids not wanting anything to do with me that it's probably also best and the most loving thing to do for me to just  let them go as well since they don't want me in their lives ,anyway,and to be honest if that's how they're going to treat me then I'm better off without them,anyway.This way they get what they want and I've released them and put it all in the past behind me and am now free to start over again and start a new life of my own,too.Before, losing the kids used to be my biggest fear and yet now it's sort of like I have lost them but I'm ok. I've accepted it.I've moved on. 

 I survived.

I'm a survivor.

It's what I do.

I've started over so many times before anyway so what's one more time,right?

This is also My Boy enjoying outside yesterday and I saw this funny thing online too saying to write down the last thing you did and then add at the end....for the glory of the empire so I wrote, I took a big shit for the glory of the empire  and another that said to quote a famous movie quote and then add, you piece of shit at the end so I did, Bueller...Bueller...Bueller... you piece of shit and I wonder as well why Pride gets a whole month all to itself; what about all the other sins? How come adultery, theft, murder, envy, malice, avarice, sloth, etc. don't have their own months as well? How come only pride is glorified and promoted? How about the other sins?

So I'm not bad, I'm damaged ,but healing. My trauma does matter. What created me does matter.-Maddox Mache

 

Wordless Wednesday.

 

Laff For Today.

Perfect for my hubby and I!😂

 

Mittwoch.

Not much going on, except we can finally get back outside after 2 days of rain! Hurray! I also saw this photo of what I used to call Jelly Fish Shoes  back in the 80's and it brought back nostalgic memories I had 2 pair; pink with silver sparkles and blue with silver sparkles. I bought them at the discount store when I was 14 and I loved them! I was so sad when I outgrew them,.They made my feet hurt, but you know, suffer for fashion, right? ha,ha. I loved my jelly fish shoes though. They got really sweaty in the summer though if you wore them barefoot so I'd always wear them with tennis socks, the kind that had the little pom-poms on the heels. Yesterday Buddy also ate all his stew except he picked out all the little cubed potatoes and left those out and it made me laugh because he's pretty picky for a guy that also licks his ass! HA! I also got a notice that from the 10 million $$$ LifeLabs class action lawsuit settlement I'm entitled to.....

.....are you ready.....

.....a grand total of.....

7.86$!

that's right! seven dollars and eighty-six cents!!

Wow!!

I am also just soooo in love with this funky 60's style hippie pants(but too fat to actually be able to wear it) and yesterday an Indigenous MP made history in the Legislature by speaking Oji-Cree  after being given "permission" (and he also noted he was punished for speaking his language at the horrid Residential Schools as a youth) and what gets me is why he even needs "permission" to speak his Native native language when the Indigenous People *were* here first, and my friend S in grade 8 was Indigenous; she was Cree, and I remember her also telling me her uncle raped her at gunpoint but I never really knew whether I believed it or not, and my friend J in Ottawa was as well(I think she was Mohawk) and she had a coolest surname,too: Wildcat.  S's last name was cool too though; it was Kiokee.Israel also now attacked a settlement in Rafah killing civilians claiming it was an "accident".....yeah....right.....I bet...my ass! Somebody needs to STOP them and get rid of Satanyahu!

I promise you, a person rejecting you is the universe protecting you.-Pammy

 

Musing For The Day.

It's the European way and the way I do it!

 

Daily Grind.

Yesterday was a dark and stormy day I just hunkered down inside all day with a scented candle lit, the fairy lights on, snuggled down on the couch under a fuzzy blanket  with Buddy curled up beside me, listening to music. My left lower shoulder blade pain is also really bad again and my cough is bad again as well and even woke me up so I wonder if maybe I even have a pulmonary embolism or lung cancer or something? I was also out the back smoking me a J and I heard a lady walking by the other side of the fence kept sneezing and I was thinking, Sorry lady, but I gotta smoke mi ganja and you gotta sneeze. As I tossed my re-newed BP pills into the medicine box with all the other pills I also told them, This is the new guy. Make him feel welcome.

I know, I'm weird.

Tomorrow child # 8 also turns 25  and when I was her age I already had 3 kids, and she's the pretty one but also easily the most pretentious and I don't think she's ever been on public transportation in her entire life; even living in Ottawa she just only takes Uber  and at Christmas she stopped by and visited my mother and gave her a gift but never even bothered to drop by to see me, and even though all but 2 of the kids( the oldest and the 29 YR old) ignore me and have cut me out of their lives and don't even acknowledge me on Mother's Day(being ashamed and embarrased of me that I have autism and bipolar) I still used to send them Christmas and birthday cards but I decided no more;  from now on just to the 2 that haven't "disowned" me. I don't need that shit or those ingrates. F*ck them! The same for when I die, only those same 2 will be left anything,too, They're the only ones that acknowledge me as their mother so in equal turn they're also the only ones that I acknowledge as my kids and  heirs,too.

I also just found out yesterday that the name Edie is short for Edith; all this time I never knew and thought they were separate names and I only ever heard of 2 people named Edie(I guess since it's such an old-fashioned  name) and yesterday my poor Buddy didn't feel well,either and didn't eat anything until later in the day, and I tried to program the Google Home device to change its name to Retardo but it kept thinking it was Ricardo so I just had to settle for Shithead instead, and my hubby and I are like room mates,too; we live in the same house but live separate lives; we have separate interests, and vacation and travel separately, etc. and the only thing we did together  and have in common was have the kids.I also think Kate Middleton is dead and the Royal Family is hiding something and covering something up and something just doesn't seem quite "right"....

The face on you The smell of you Will always be with me.-Sinead O' Connor